Thursday, October 16, 2014
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day After Our Rainbow Baby
So yesterday was October 15th. The day we light candles to remember our lost babies, that we lost either before or after birth. Last year on that day I was almost 8 weeks pregnant. I was still so sad about losing our sweet babies and so scared that River would be one more. I always thought though that if she made it and was born safely that this year I would not feel so sad on this day. Yet yesterday I found my thoughts with Asya Rose and feeling very sad. River is a gift from heaven and I look at every day with her as a gift and a blessing but just having a Rainbow baby doesn't completely erase the sadness. I wish I had something more to say on this subject but I don't. All I really have to say is that I love both my girls and I don't think that that will ever get easier. Having River though does make things a lot better. I love her so much.