We made it... this far anyway...

Well as of yesterday I was 14 weeks 1 day, which was the day exactly that Asya Rose was born sleeping. We lost her around 12 weeks, found out at 13 weeks 4 days and she was born in an at home water birth, all natural at 14 weeks 1 day. I held her in my hands for about 30 mins and then buried her. Hubby and Bug never knew until it was all over. They knew we had lost her of course but they didn't know I had gone into labor or that my water had broken or that I had given birth. It was the closest thing I will ever get to a natural birth, as this baby will be born via c section. We don't have a choice this time due to the risks and the rules on VBAC up here. I had it in me to fight last time but this time after losing Asya I just want my rainbow home safe and sound. So unless I go early on my own it will be a c section. But aside from all this back to my original point.. here I am at 14 weeks 2 days. 14 weeks 2 days!!! 24 hrs further along than the day I was when my daughter was born. I am now officially further along and what is more this baby is happy, healthy, and growing well. In a few weeks we should know the sex and hopefully finally choose a name. We have been having a really tough time with that.
So as we are getting closer to the due date, I set about seeing what we can reuse or upcycle from Bug. as it turns out we really won't be needing much. We have clothes, diapers, blankets, bottles... a bouncer and we recently bought a new swing that was used from a friend ( so more reusing). Our baby carriers are still in great condition and our convertible carseat is still under it's expiration date (though the baby car seat will expire soon after the baby is born.) We may get a few months out of it though. All in all we are looking at going into this baby needing very little new stuff. This baby is going to not only be a Rainbow Baby but a very Green one too. Just like her/his Big Brother. For Christmas I am making Bug a Big Brother t shirt. I can't wait to give it to him. Well I don't really have any awesome food pics or anything (although I have been cooking up a storm) so instead I will leave you all with a gorgeous snowy picture of what our town currently looks like. Happy Holidays Friends!